23 Things I Want to Say to People, But Don't

1. If your MySpace status is about me, I have three things to say to you. One: I don't feel the same way. Two: GET OVER IT. And three: OMG. You're IMMATURE. If it's not about me, then congrats to you. You've learned to move on.
   
2. Just bite her already.
3. She's changed you. I miss the old you. You're just so critical now. And whiny. And, I love you, but you're being hella annoying.
4. If you're out there, I wish you'd let me know...
5. Sometimes you border on childish and immature, but I still love you more than my own existence.
6. You're the only friend I have who I can spend an extremely extended amount of time with, ever. Thank you for being there for me, always.
7. Deary, you are the sweetest thing I know. You can be reckless, and stupid, and rush into things, but you are the one I talk to about all the hard stuff. I hope you and I can get some things sorted sometime soon.
8. Seriously? You're not incredibly smart. You're not incredibly beautiful. And you're not incredibly gifted in extra talents. So get off your friggin high horse.
9. You've gotta be kidding. Marriage? Psh. You're insane.
10. The reason I never answer your IMs? Because you're dull and we have nothing to talk about. Sorry, man, but that's the way it is. Ask me tomorrow, and you may get a nicer answer.
11. You ask girls out on a whim, just because you want a girlfriend so bad. It's not their fault they don't like you that way. Just learn to have a crush, okay? It feels nice sometimes.
12. I told you I loved you when I didn't. I kissed you when I didn't really want to. I held onto you when all I wanted to do was shove you away. I'm a horrible bitch. Forgive me, please.
13. Stop playing your game with him. You don't love him the way he loves you, so stop toying with him before I get my band of make-believe characters to kick your ass. (Word to the wise, the said band includes but is not limited to vampires, werewolves, winged bird-kids, time-travelers skilled in kicking people's butts, and a wolf/human hybrid some would call "Erasers.")
14. What we had last summer was nothing but wishful thinking. It's not like we ever did anything except talk on the phone. And we weren't even great at talking on the phone. You asked me how far I would go with you while I asked you real questions. I already knew the answers to all of the ones you asked me.
15. Oh, so you speak with God personally? You know exactly what he meant by every verse in the Bible? Please, do enlighten me, as I was not aware that you have been so blessed by the Lord Almighty.
16. I kind of liked you, but I'm fine with the way things turned out, because, let's face it, you're not what I need.
17. Mrs. Peterson made me LIKE science. Thanks, Teach, you ruined that for me.
18. I'm sorry for what happened. It was stupid and ridiculous, and when you really think about it, not that bad. But I wish it hadn't screwed up what was turning into a friendship. It was my fault. And I'm sorry.
19. You gave me the confidence I needed to pursue my dream. I hope you're right. I hope this works. And if it does, remember it was YOU would gave me that shove by saying you thought I could when you have no idea.
20. You were a bitch to her. Why?
21. You went out with her. You slept with her. You ignored her. Then you broke up with her. Smart, man. Not a good way to keep a girlfriend, now is it?
22. Asshole.
23. I didn't mean to alienate you. All I wanted was someone else there with us. We won't leave you at the party. I love you!

I won't say who any of them are, so don't ask. I will say that nine are female, and fourteen are male. This is just my little bitch moment. Sorry if I seem, well, bitchy to anyone out there. =]

1-2-3-4

1. BOYS

So basically, that didn't work out at all with that boy, but it was kind of nice to have a crush on someone for once. Kind of a different perspective, like there is hope for this young thing after all. But, as the Backstreet Boys say, "Life goes on. It never ends."

2. MY STORY

I'm working on this story that I'm going to TRY to finish and publish. It has more potential than anything I've ever done, and I'm actually filling up notebook pages with excess information on the story that I may or may not use and working out kinks and plot endings. This is more advanced than I've ever gone. I'm sorry, but I will NOT post any piece of the story for fear that it will get stolen, which will piss me off and God knows no one wants to piss me off, right? Right. I'm still working on it. I've got thirteen 12-point Times New Roman font pages and still growing quickly.

3. TWILIGHT

I wanted to read all three books in the Twilight Saga before Breaking Dawn came out on the first, but it looks like I'll only get Twilight and part of New Moon finished because I procrastinated and didn't read enough. I'll keep you posted on that.

4. BREAKING DAWN RELEASE PARTY

Yep. I'm going to one on Friday/Saturday. Friggin can't wait either. =]

About the last two posts

I had several commenters be confused by my last two posts. The song lyrics were meant to describe how my life was going. "Jessie's Girl" is about a guy who likes his friend's girlfriend. I am a girl who likes her friend's boyfriend. Then I added "Stop This Song" because that was how I felt that day. Just clearing things up.

How I Feel NOW

OneCoolNerd: Another song. Seeing this dictates how quickly my life moves.

You say the sweetest things and I
Can't keep my heart from singing along to the sound of your song
My stupid feet keep moving to this 4/4 beat, I'm in time with you
Whoa, to this 4/4 beat I would die for you (die for you)

(Someone stop this)
I've gone to far to come back from here, but you don't have a clue
You don't know what you do to me

Won't someone stop this song, so I won't sing along
Someone stop this song, so I won't sing..

I never let love in so I could keep my heart from hurting
The longer that I live with this idea, the more I sink into this 4/4 beat
I'm in time with you
Whoa, to this 4/4 beat I would die for you (stop this song)

I've gone to far to come back from here, but you don't have a clue
You don't know what you do to me
I've come to far to get over you, and you don't have a clue
You don't know what you do to me

Can't someone stop this song, so I won't sing along
Someone stop this song, so I won't sing

Your lovesick melody is gonna get the best of me tonight
But you won't get to me if I don't sing

It creeps in like a spider
That can't be killed, although I try and try to
Well, don't you see I'm falling?
Don't wanna love you, but I do

(Lovesick melody) Can someone stop this song, so I won't sing along?
(Lovesick melody) Can someone stop this song, so I won't sing?
Your lovesick melody is gonna get the best of me tonight
But you won't get to me, no
You won't get to me 'cause I won't sing

Credits: Written by Paramore*, Produced by ???**, courtesy of Fueled By Ramen, 200?***

* Since this song is not on a mainstream album, I could not find if it was written by Hayley, Josh, Zac, Jeremy, a combination of those, or an outside force.

** Since this song is not on a mainstream album, I could not find the producer for this song. RIOT! was produced by David Bendeth and Josh Janick

***Since this song is not on a mainstream album, I could not find the exact year. Assume it's somewhere between 2005 and 2008

Flip it around to discover how I feel.

Jessie is a friend,
yeah, I know he's been
a good friend of mine
But lately something's changed
that ain't hard to define
Jessie's got himself a girl
and I want to make her mine
And she's watching him with those eyes
And she's lovin' him with that body,
I just know it
Yeah 'n' he's holding her
in his arms late,
late at night

You know, I wish that I had Jessie's girl,
I wish that I had Jessie's girl
Where can I find a woman like that
I play along with the charade,
there doesn't seem to be
a reason to change
You know, I feel so dirty
when they start talking cute
I wanna tell her that I love her,
but the point is probably moot
'Cos she's watching him with those eyes
And she's lovin' him with that body,
I just know it
And he's holding her
in his arms late, late at night

Like Jessie's girl,
I wish that I had Jessie's girl
Where can I find a woman,
where can I find a woman like that
And I'm lookin' in the mirror all the time,
wondering what she don't see in me
I've been funny,
I've been cool with the lines
Ain't that the way
love supposed to be
Tell me, where can I find a woman like that

You know, I wish that I had Jessie's girl,
I wish that I had Jessie's girl
I want Jessie's girl,
where can I find a woman like that, like
Jessie's girl,
I wish that I had Jessie's girl,
I want,
I want Jessie's girl

Credits: Written by Rick Springfield, Performed by Rick Springfield, Produced by Keith Olsen, RCA Records 1981

Soccer vs. Cross Country

GAH!!!!! Once again, I am faced with a pointless delima which means nothing to half of the people in the universe. The problem? Oh, well simple, my dear blog viewers. Sports.

Yes, sports. I am not a sporty girl. I don't enjoy most athletics. But this year, I am faced with the issue of which sport to play: cross country or soccer. So, because I am a nerd and these are the kinds of things nerds do, I will debate. Against myself. Oh, joy.

PROS:

SOCCER

1. I've done soccer for AT LEAST five years.
2. I was on the first ever middle school girls' soccer team
3. Getting the ball in the goal past the goalie is possibly the best feeling there is.
4. I'll probably make JV, which will be more fun.
5. And, oh yeah. I <3 it.

CROSS COUNTRY

1. I'll be on varsity and letter.
2. It'll make Mr. Oliver happy
3. I have a few friends on the team...maybe...
4. REALLY good for my body
5. Short practices
6. You make friends with people you compete against
7. I have a friend on the Toledo team who I won't see if I do soccer
8. There's kinda sorta a boy on the cross country team who I kinda sorta like

CONS:

SOCCER

1. Practices suck.
2. There are girls on the team I don't much like
3. Do I even have any friends on the team?
4. I won't letter. I'm sure.
5. shin guards + soccer socks + 90 degree weather = HOTHOTHOT

CROSS COUNTRY

1. I hate running.
2. Jamie moved away. Suddenly things are much less exciting.
3. None of my extremely close friends are on the team
4. I hate running
5. I hate running
6. I hate running
   

Input please!

My Life.

Thanks to anyone who has visited my page and commented! I'd thank those of you who visited my page and DIDN'T comment, but then, I don't know you visited. So you see my issue. What does that tell us, folks? COMMENT.

I added a new chapter to Whatever Happened to JJ? My best yet, if I do say so myself. Well on that story. And since there's only three chapters, there's a one-in-three chance of that being true. Nonetheless, I liked it.

Moving on. I just want to know, am I getting repeat views? Like, do you viewers come on every now and then, or all of the time? Just wondering.

Saw WALL-E. It rocked. As I expected it would.

My July 4th Update.

Yeah, so basically, this is just checking in. Letting you know what's going on in my life. And that kind of stuff.

Today is July Fourth!!!!!!!!!!! Whooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!! And everyone else on the planet has plans but me!!!!!!!!! Whooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just kidding. Only Americans have big whoo-worthy Fourth of July plans. Everyone else in the world may have whoo-worthy fourth of July plans, but they're not Fourth of July plans.

Did you catch that little capitalization joke? Cuz that took wit, man.

I've been chilling at home, mostly. I was invited by one of my friends to go to Vegas and see a LIVE show of The Phantom of the Opera. You even get to put on dresses and do your hair pretty and stuff like that. But since I have frigging DRIVERS' ED I can't go. Damn.

I did a mass update on FanFiction. Or at least, I consider it a mass update. Every active story (minus The Truth is Hard to Handle because I am NEVER going to finish it) was updated. I even have ideas for what comes next for Whatever Happened to JJ? Just letting you know, though, that When a Winged Girl Meets a Magic Boy is going to be filler for a bit because they need to kind of get to California before I can complete the next phase of their adventure. I may even choose to continue the Delilah/Kyle plotline. Think so?

Yeah, so basically, I am hoping to go to Australia. Next year. PLEASE GOD HELP ME WITH THIS!!!!!!!! Anyone live in Australia? Maybe we could meet up or something like that. That'd be pretty sweet man.

I say 'man' a lot. I should stop that.

I found this awesome band! They're name is Tokio Hotel! And if you're like any of my friends, you tell me you've already heard of them and make me feel like an uninformed pathetic loser! But I found them by searching for music by Blaqk Audio and ended up buying a song called "Ready, Set, Go! (AFI/Blaqk Audio Remix" by Tokio Hotel off of iTunes. It was the kind of thing where you can't buy the individual song, just the album, and the album was only 99 cents, so I thought, Why not? And then I previewed the rest of the the band's stuff--one other disc called "Scream!"--and ended up loving it! That's when I decided to do some research. Tokio Hotel have been together since the guys were only teenagers. They originate out of Germany, and you can even buy two other albums in hard-copy that they released before "Scream!" They're called "Schrei" and "Zimmer 483". My translation skills (which include using www.freetranslation.com) tell me the following:

Schrei = Scream
Zimmer 483 = Rooms 483

Wikipedia tells me that I am correct.

Soooooo what's up with you? =]