Sunday, September 28, 2008

Whoa.

*DISCLAIMER: AS I HAVE NOT YET WRITTEN THE FOLLOWING, IT MAY OR MAY NOT BE HEAVILY CHRISTIAN. IF YOU DON'T WANT SOME MAJOR IDEAS (MAYBE) THEN DON'T READ. AS ALWAYS, I APPRECIATE YOUR OPINIONS.*

Usually when I go to Youth Group, I sit for an hour and a half bored. Some ideas may be infused, some things may stick, but most are forgotten about by about 6:30 Sunday night, when the infamous question, "What's for dinner?" poses itself.

No. Not tonight.

Tonight, I got home, and was quiet the whole way home. You don't physically know me, most of you, so you wouldn't understand. But it's unusual for me to be quiet. I'm loud and crazy and stuff like that. But no. Silence. My mom asked about it and I'm just like, "Am I not allowed to be quiet? Must I be loud and boisterous all the time?" which, yes, sounds crazy mean when typed, but in a soft distant tone it didn't sound so mean. So, I get home and I call my friend. This has nothing to do with Christianity but I'm retelling a truth, so everything must be included. She didn't answer her phone, I left her a voicemail. Moving on. I get on my computer. And I add a playlist to iTunes. I call it "Inspirational". As I looked through iTunes, I didn't feel like listening to Davey relaying how crappy he feels. I didn't feel like listening to Demi preach about her love life in all its falls and rises. I didn't want to hear Kanye talk about his sex life. I wanted to hear Lacey talk about her rise to God. I wanted to listen to an unsigned band that no one knows explain how great his life was. I craved God at that moment. In the truest form I know, I wanted, needed to hear God's tellings. Music is how I live my life. So that's what I did. And then I got online, checked my email, and then began to blog to you this.

My youth pastor, Kim, gave me ideas today that made total sense. She explained to us dozens of ideas that I'd never before comprehended. Sex, God, hell, heaven, it all began to make sense. I left with, well, still questions. But I left with a sense that I'd not wasted an hour and a half of my life. I loooooved youth group today. It was amazing.

1 comment:

stumblingchristiangirl said...

Dude i totall felt that. More so other things. I mean yeah..its just insane how much it made me realize what my actions show..blog is amazing.. i loved it.